En-2-wine

I'm so excited about today! We're celebrating our 2nd month wedding anniversary! Last month, we didn't get to celebrate... the date ended on the 28th. It was a little odd for me. Whereas before, when we we're still single, we used to celebrate every 18th of the month.

Nothing much to do today, I bet Jayson didn't plan for anything special...it's just not in his blood to be mushy and romantic. I accepted that! But sometimes, being the girl that I am, I long for those times when he would still write me letters or take me out some place romantic.

Nevertheless, I'm still happy! For the thought of having him beside me... always caring, always loving, always protective, always making me irritated and laugh at the same time, always making sure that my grammar is correct, making sure that the day will never pass without him saying i love you( i just made this one up in my mind, wishful thinking) all this...is enough to fill my heart with glee. Everyday, I wake up with God's most endearing gift to me, my husband. Of course, it wouldn't hurt if he gives me a present once in a while.

Happy 2nd month anniversary, Bebe!

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As I've predicted, nothing spectacular transpired today. No crystal ball needed to see this coming. It must be the heat interfering with the romance that's suppose to be there. Two months of being married...nothing's changed. It's all good though, all good.

Does my cousin's graduation party count as a date? Duh. 11:57pm

Surfeit of Pain

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I've been flustered for two days now. My gastrointestinal system is out-of-order. It's debilitating and most certainly caused some embarassment for me. Imagine, weeping over pain that I, myself will have to find a remedy. The spasms are killing me. I had to take medication just to relieve me of some pain. Can't go to work today.
Was it the seafood fried noodles we had the other day? It's another case of indigestion/malabsorption. Stop being a glutton! I ended up having Irritable Bowel Syndrome.
Symptoms include:
1. abdominal distention
2. relief of abdominal pain with bowel movement
3. increased frequency of stools with pain
4. loose stools with pain
5. sense of incomplete evacuation
6. heartburn
7. bloating
8. faintness, weakness
9. back pain
10. urinary frequency
Even Jayson wasn't spared. The toilet bowl has been our constant companion for the day. Thank you, vacuum flush!

The Unholy Hours of the Week That Was

Eye Opener:
"Do not judge others and God will not judge you. "(Mt 7:1)
In a world of self-professed "holy" people, judging others seems like second nature. Everyday, we get to experience being scrutinized by self-righteous souls thinking that perhaps, they are better than us, more spiritual, more compliant. They play being God, believing that they can read people's minds. These are the kind of human beings that nobody wants around. They only see what seem fit to their standards, fast to criticize, always missing the big picture.

Just because we observe the Lenten season differently, doesn't mean we are wrong. Justifying every bit of reason why we take this time to enjoy rather than mourn? I say, don't be guilty! Maybe God would prefer that we spend this time with our loved ones, more than going to different chuches, praying for self-gratifying intentions. This is my take on the observance of the Holy Week.

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From a City girl's view point, there's nothing much to do when I go to the province. That's why this is the best time to: go out at night and look at the sky, roam around the backyard, take time to observe how chickens go about with their lives.

(Photo title clockwise from top left: MoonFace (notice the image of a man beside the moon), Camachile backyard, Rooster on the run, My Malibu (just a pair of coconut trees viewed from below...feels like lying on the beach)

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Come Easter Sunday, we had the opportunity to be chosen as the Principal Sponsors for the Baptismal of John Steeves & John Vincent. This is the 20th+ time that I will stand witness as a godmother, 1st time with twins. Yes! A double bundle of joy. I almost forgot what godparents are for, what the Sacrament of Baptism stands for. We had a refresher course on this.

1. Baptism relieves us of the Original Sin
2. Through it, we receive Sanctifying grace
3. We become members of the Church of God

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What do we really want? "World Peace!" - Ms. Congeniality 2, Armed & Fabulous

Diet Me-Dusa

There's no place to go in the city. Not lots to do. Bad tv programming. Nobody on-line!
Most of all, I'm sick of eating seafood! I'm feeling the scales growing on my skin. Every so often, I crave for food. Fish gets digested easily. My stomach rumbles in despair and emptiness.

Though I'm eating, I still feel famished. I want real food or should I say...Junk food! All-meat pizza, Lasagna, Mc Chicken, and Cheeseburger. If I'm not an active Catholic, does that exclude me from the No-meat policy? I'm not on a diet! I'm on a mission, to add-on some kilograms.
Ang babaw. Mahirap talaga pag gutom. Pati utak di umaandar!

Eto ang dasal ko... "Sana Easter na! Ayaw ko na magutom! Amen."

Of Bombs and Bums

Remember the death threats that we had a month ago? Well, she's back! Wanted us all dead in a bomb explosion. A terrorist wanna be. We're not as terrified as we used to. She sounded like a desperate bitch. Insisting that Jayson had offended her and her womanhood. What the F*ck is that all about? Is this a desperate attempt to break us apart? She can't even accurately describe how Jayson looks like. Won't work! Buzz off! You pesky, troubled, crazy, wh*re! Go f*ck yourself!

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Went to work late today. Zero patient/s seen! What a life? Did nothing but wait, walk around, sit, read, nap, eat and take pictures. Btw, here's our little space of work (notice my new haircut too).

This is the basic reason why young doctors seek greener pastures in foreign soil. Papua New Guinea, here we come! Imagine, more than 10 years of college & postgrad education for nothing. Having one of the most noble profession yet being stagnant and unfulfilled. Whine! Whine! Whine! There'll be better days, I hope.

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Determine Your Lifework

1. Your lifework should utilize both your gifts and your interests.

2. Your lifework should be something you love doing. It should invigorate instead of debilitate.

3. Your lifework should provide you with adequate income.

4. Your lifework should be confirmed by others.

Time to ponder.

Back in Business

Finally!
After hours and hours of butt-burning, it is done.
The template was originally from Tuskdrusla but I changed the lay-out and almost everything else in it. Sooooo lazy to start from scratch, besides... I'm still learning.

Here it is now, the product of... my sleepless nights( check time stamp-still awake at 2:30am), layered eye-bags, gluteal pressure sores, and palpitations.

Under Construction

Spent a long night reconstructing my blog. The comments link is not working yet. Having a hard time figuring how to put it back.
For the meantime...you can use the tagboard for your 2cents worth.
Please, tell me what you think about the new look of my blog.

Letter of the Month

Preview, originally uploaded by lengguy75.

Its been two month since I got the latest issue of PREVIEW magazine. I missed the Feb. ish not because I didn't like it, but because I didn't see one at the stalls. Well, this month is something to look forward to with all the summer trends coming out.

I was actually choosing between Preview and Metro. Ever had a gut feeling that you have to go with a certain thing, just like a meek voice telling me..."Preview.Preview". Psychic or Psycotic?

So to make the story short, got my magazine, left it in the car for a day, jayson read it first but didn't notice, passed it on to me, read the Editor's note, looked at the price for the letter of the month at the end of the page, read from bottom to top. Alas! I can't believe that I was actually reading my own letter. I was in awe. Writing was never really my cup of tea, so you could just imagine how stunned I was. Never mind that it wasn't for a Nobel prize. Heck! Who the hell cares? Uhmm, me?

I was lucky enough to have my letter chosen. Talk about Nullah! Winner here! Ding,ding,ding!Took a deep breath and looked at it again. Yes, it was mine, alright! I have forgotten about the letter already as I sent it a couple of months ago (I was still single then, planning the perfect wedding, and had plenty of time in my hands).

Now, when shall I claim my prize? What is it anyway?

Father of the Bride

Father of the Bride

Strolling down memory lane, i found this mail . It reminded me of that special moment that transpired during our wedding, and it sent me back to tears. Read on...

Father of the Bride

I thought it would be a long walk when I marched down the aisle to give my daughter away. But it wasn't, in a flash it was over and she had passed from my care to another man's.
Yet there was no sadness to this important ocassion. I felt very proud as I walked down the long aisle. It is nice to have a beautiful girl hanging on your arm, especially when she's your daughter.

I knew no one was paying any attention to me, but i beamed just the same. and in the fleeting moments of
that walk, a whole lifetime of memories cascaded through my mind. The fat
little baby who never cried, to the tall high - strung gal with the quick
mind and the fast talk...skinned knees from roller skating ...music lessons
that didn't take...slumber parties no end... a father - daughter vacation
trip in the mountains...triumphs in school...heartbreak... the time she
dodged her father when he looked as if he, a chaperone, might dance with her
at a high schoolparty...

In a moment the ceremony was over. Here the little girl who had galloped
through my life at such a fast and exciting pace was grown and married and
gone. Her questions and appeals wouldn't be to daddy any more. But you can't
be unhappy about it when your daughter trades you off for a bright, young,
strong, ambitious new model! I was proud because she knew how to choose...

I have always believed that lives were meant to serve with, not just to
live. I just hope they remain kind and thoughtful and considerate and
useful..tolerant of all but more than that, understanding...humbleand human
but inspired, for there is so much to do, so many to be served. Then
happiness will come easily.

Yes, it was a short walk down the aisle...but at the end of it I saw a door
opened to a long new road...

-Anonymous

Dogster

Basti

Almost everybody I know has a Friendster account. Ever heard of Dogster before? I was fascinated by it since yesterday that I immediately made an account for my 2 brothers, Azotea's Sebastian (aka Basti the Pug) and Sunny of St. Lucy (aka Puffy the Maltese- In loving Memory).

Some of the dogs are for adoption too. So if you're looking for a perfect companion, have a big heart for these pups, take one home and shower them with your love.

If you have a network of friends, why not make one for your Bestfriend. I'm sure even without your pet knowing it, they'd love to have cyberfriends too.
And if you have Cats...go to Catster instead.

When you decide to drop by my pet's website, be kind, pls. offer them a bone! Every pup is deserving to receive one or two or three...

Mulan

Bamboo Gardens

Thoughts that stirred me up as I watched my favorite movie...Mulan.

Bamboo...

Be like a bamboo plant, "Bend, but don't Break."

If there's one thing I admire about the bamboo plant is it's resilience. Amidst the most harsh storm that sways it to its breaking point, the bamboo always manages to bounce back and stand tall.
Trials shouldn't make us falter. Give ourselves another chance, another try. No one ever succeeded by quitting. No one reached a compromise without bending a part of what they hold true.
Do you ever wonder why bamboo grows slowly? Yet after a few months of retarded growth, they suddenly reach for the sky in height. That's because they spend the first few months spreading their roots and holding on to the earth's crust. So when the time comes for them to mature, they would have taken all of the earth's nutrients needed for growth.


Tears...

Aside from the scientific explanation blah,blah, that's trivial for most of us, here's one thought.

"When one's heart is overfilled with joy, some spill though the eyes."

- Chinese proverb

Soul Searching

I saw this at Leah's blog a month ago and finally decided to give it a try.
The result:

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

On Karma:

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person. And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already. But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's" Your Karma?

What Element:

Your Element Is Earth

You excel at planning and strategizing. You could be a champ at chess or Survivor. Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize. On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you. You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

Fix It

Woke up with two layers of eyebags. Stayed up watching VIRGIN PEOPLE. I got so amused watching, i lost track of time. Jayson had a hard time getting me to rise. Another busy day.

Went to Mt. Carmel Church to get the original Marriage Contract.
Ooops! They missed listing 2 pairs of principal sponsors. Shall we do something about it? We let it go. Headed off to QC Hall to file for a Certified True Copy. As usual, it was a breeze. The employees were efficient and corteous.

We dropped by the mall to buy some things for the clinic, some final touches. Then drooled over the 10.7" sony vaio at Cyberzone. Oh well, i've been wanting to have my old Vaio changed for some time now. Still drooling.

After dinner, we went to the clinic to put up some drapes, diploma, clock etc. J had blisters on his hand from using the powertool. Good thing he was able to do what we were supposed to accomplish for today. Good work, my own Mister Fix-it!

Blighted

Originally uploaded by sThig.

Been up late last night. I couldn't get myself to rise early this morning. I'm declaring today, a rest day. Eat, sleep, and use the pc. What a life?

We were supposed to get our marriage certificate today. Next week sounds good to me.

Btw, it is official. The red flag is up! I guess I won't be paying the hospital a visit on All Saints Day after all.

In a Day

Just one of those days when nothing seem to go right. I was excited to rise thing morning, got to bring out the hCG test. I was hoping for a positive result. I guess I wished for something so early. Maybe, God didn't want my 1st child to be born on November 1. Yes, I already counted the days and computed my Expected Date of Confinement. Oh well, maybe my biorhythm is still adjusting. Give it more time, patience is a virtue.



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On the lighter side, come to think of it, we should be celebrating our 1st month anniversary today. Don't know when to celebrate since it falls on the 31st of the month.



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While waiting for Jayson's dad to get his Visa from the PNG Embassy, we let time pass by watching Million Dollar Baby. Mo Cousha (hope I spelled that right) Gaelic term meaning: My darling, My blood. I should have watched it with my dad. Nothing like a father's love to his daughter...or something like that. Perserverance, dedication, heart...If only we could all be like the heroine. Make a difference when everything seem ordinary and hopeless.

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Championship season for Jayson's Basketball League. Today should have been theirs. I know he deserves the title, CHAMPION. He had more heart, more will, more talent than any of his team mates combined. He made his presence known just like old times. But one man doesn't make a team. It should have been theirs. We waited for so many years for this moment, only to see it slip away. It's his last game today. There won't be other days. But, i'll always remember this moment. Today, he redefined the meaning of victory.

Rhythmic

Nike SHOX Rhythmic
Originally uploaded by lengguy75.

Just strolling 'round Glorietta, Jayson went to Nike Park again. As usual, took a glimpse of what's fresh and fantasize on getting the new LeBron line. I wasn't really interested in buying one for myself but the new line of women's training shoes were just out. I picked one out, and he told me to try on my size. None in size 6. They just ran out. But they have my size with the newest arrival...i had to gush. I can't believe I'm about to hit the jackpot again. Alas! It's mine! I've been wanting to buy SHOX but never really taking the step. Feels so good and comfy. Now, I can take them for a dry run, uhhmm, at the mall? Thanks bebe! I loved it!